Stalling Out


"I keep stalling out
I just can't keep up
There's alarming doubt
Am I good enough?
But You keep coming around
To convince me
It's still far from over, oh"

Mute Math - Stall Out


Do you ever feel like you've stalled out?

Like you've been just coasting on your own momentum?

You ever get to that point, where you don't have any more momentum? That point where it seems like everything is on the brink of falling, like something has gone horribly wrong... have you been there?

I am there. I feel like I've stalled out, like I'm no longer flying... simply falling. I am tired and it feels like I can't do anything right. I am being sucked into pointless arguments, taking offense at perceived slights, and just overall becoming someone I don't like.

And it is now that I realize it's time to look for help again, and I rejoice at the thought that there is still help for me, still hope for me. This fall... it may not be huge to anyone else, but it is terrifying to me, and the thought that His hand is willing to catch me if I just call out...

It's enough to destroy all of my doubts. It is the perfect love that casts away fear.

"we are still far from over"

(For those of you who haven't known me long, I post what God is doing in my life at my weakest points, because I know there are others out there going through the same thing. To those, I say... you aren't alone.)

6 comments:

Robert Tewart said...

Hey Richard. I respect your transparency. I could say a lot and give you bible verses and the like. But you know what it takes. Total surrender. Keep striving toward that goal brother.

I would like your opinions on my posted audios good, bad or indifferent. If you would like to take that offline. email me personally at th3z@aol.com
Soli Deo Gloria indeed!!
Rob

Shark Bait said...

Man, if I knew the answer to that one I would be a bigger FISH than I am right now.

I am so sorry to hear that, and yes,I can so relate. The fall looks so far when you have to look down, and know where you are coming from.

I know that words and prayers don't always seem like they're enough, but they are all I have to offer right now. I'll keep you in my prayers - unless I forget, or can't be bothered :-)

<-SB><

Richard said...

I'm sorry, Robert, but in the interest of keeping myself from bickering and arguing (which I am still probably liable to fall into), I would rather not listen to your posted audios at this time.

Normally I would, but I am obviously at a point where I can be baited into an argument by seemingly benign banter and debate.

Thank you for understanding.

And Shark, thanks a lot brotha. I am enjoying my return right now :).

Robert Tewart said...

Fair enough Richard. However, I think if I had posted the links at TR in the first place, it would have done a great deal to avoid a lot of the debate. Karl has gone ahead and done just that. Hope some folks listen and get the real deal. Keep looking up. Robert

sherri said...

i've been there. I also referred to it as "struggling".

Struggling to be where and what I thought I should be. Struggling for peace, joy, wisdom.

Then my very wise big brother said to me, "Struggling is a good thing. It proves you're still alive. As long as you show signs of life, there is always hope. The struggle actually makes you stronger."

May your struggle make you even stronger!

Matt @ The Church of No People said...

I've felt like I'm coasting. But lately, it actually feels like I can't get any momentum! Both aren't really great places to be. Try to find the happy place.